So, yea. I'm going to start doing a blog again, now that things have KIND of slowed down. Not really, but I just REALLY need to get my fingers back to the keys.
Let's see, what to talk about. . . .
Well, there's always school!
We're about to get to squaring away our schedules for junior year which is ALWAYS fun for me :]
Right. The counselors never know what to do with me. I tell them what classes I need to take and they always give me guff or try and convince me that I don't know what I'm talking about. This year it isn't so bad, but last year OH YOUR GAWD. I tried to tell the counselor that I was taking Spanish 2 without Spanish 1, that it was all cleared and I was good to go, but she kept saying "Well, I don't think you're cleared for that. I mean, you CAN'T have Spanish 2 without Spanish 1. That just isn't right! That'd be too advanced for you."
PUNCH to the FACE NARGHSNARFFLE.
Then, when I got all the signatures I needed, she was like "Oh, well, OF COURSE! No PROBLEM!"
Jesus H. Christ.
So, the classes I'm taking next year are:
Spanish 3
Physics
Calculus
U.S. History (prolly Dual Enrollment)
English 3 CP
ACT Prep (which I will totally rant about later because it's BS)
HOPEFULLY Cougar Vision! and, if not, Ladies Choir
Psychology for the first semester and mebbeh Floral Design for second or something like that.
So yea. Lotsa fun in that.
It sucks because I have to take Calculus next year and Advanced Math my senior year to get all four of my maths in. And if they try and protest it with that BS excuse of "Oh, well, you can't go backwards." then I'm going to remind them that they REFUSED to give me ANY of the THREE years of French I had in middle school.
That'll shut them up.
That ACT Prep class pisses me off SO BAD though.
It's basically a YEAR-LONG class that teaches you how to take a test. Which is CRAP.
Most of the kids going into that class don't know how to do the math, right? Too advanced for their foundations 1 selves. Well, the class teaches them the SHORTCUT way of doing the math without teaching them what it's used for or how to do it the long way. I've also heard that the teachers tells them to read only 75% of the reading section so that they can spend time getting all of that 75% right instead of worrying about all 100%.
I TOTALLY call crap on that.
I understand teaching kids how to take a class that will affect their future and what colleges they get into, but JESUS.
This is RIDICULOUS.
Things here are so backwards.
Like, the gifted kids being lumped into special ed with the "mentally challenged" kids.
The higher end mixed in with the lower end of the Spectrum of Intelligence.
That would be okay if the gifted kids got as much funding as the special ed kids.
But we don't.
I understand teaching the retarded kids to take care of themselves so they won't be a burden on society when they're older, but the logic behind not paying for gifted services is that the "genius" kids are doing just fine on their own.
Do they realize that gifted kids, especially girls, tend to drop in IQ as they get into high school because they want to "fit it" with everyone else? By not supporting the intelligent sect of the school, they essientially wipe it out.
pisses me off.
Man, I hope I get into Cougar Vision though. . . .like, SERIOUSLY.
There are a lot of people that signed up and are turning in an application that really don't deserve it, I don't think.
They hear that CV is having auditions and they think to themselves 'OMFGSJDHFKJ! WOULDN'T IT BE GRATE TO BE IN CV?!??!?! OMGIKSJHEH! IT'D BE SO COOL!' and it makes me so mad because they aren't even involved with the Drama Society. I mean, how can you expect to be chosen for a film-making class based on acting and script-writing if you aren't even in a theater arts class? Or in the Drama Society? Or involved with the play?
It's inexcusable in my book.
And, yes, most of the people trying out are my friends, but,and I will tell it to their face, they really need to realize that they don't need to be auditioning if they're just doing it to be in the spotlight. It's crap to do that to people.
If they know their way around equipment, GREAT! That's fantastic! I would be happy to have them on CV!
But they're doing because they want to 'goof around' and 'make movies with their friends', then that is going to REALLY piss me off. I think I have some really good ideas for shows, and I think I have the talent to write a script for them. Hell, if I can write a funny script in SPANISH, a language I'm not familiar with, I think I can do a pretty damn good job writing scripts for CV.
Man, a lot of crap pisses me off.
PreCalculus sucks, majorly. If I pass that class with a 70, I'll be happy. For a little while, I cared about my GPA, but I don't anymore because I realized that I take harder classes to learn something. Most of the people in the top 10 take easy classes to keep their high GPA. I don't need that bullshit. Having straight As is nothing anymore. It doesn't hold the same weight to colleges.
Let me talk about something happier, I guess.
So, my love life.
What an interesting story that is.
Bottom line, I want to get back together with Tommy.
Everyone thinks I'm ridiculous for it, the whole 'Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, I'm an idiot.', but most people don't realize that they really don't know what went on between us. Most of the stuff I told people was the stuff that bothered me. I didn't tell people every little thing that went on between us. So, they assumed they knew the whole story when they didn't. That's partly my bad for setting it up, but partly their bad for making assumptions.
Tommy really is a great guy. He's absolutely hilarious, and not in a super-conventional way. He has a different way of looking at things. Sure, he's a little cynical, but I'm overly optimistic, so it balances out. He really is smart, despite what everyone else has to say. During all his years in high school, he kept at LEAST one job; most of the time, it was more than one. He knows what he wants out of life. He's stubborn, sometimes to a fault, but, if he hadn't been stubborn, we wouldn't have gotten together in the first place. He's nerdy, in an absolutely adorable way. He's sexxxxxxeh (sorry, I had to mention that).
And it isn't that hard for me to fall in love with him all over again.
For now, we're still friends, until my parents come around and start trusting him again.
The only thing I'm afraid of is that we'll date for three months, again, then break up, AGAIN.
Who knows? Maybe this time is different, but I don't know for sure.
That's why I want to try and make sure things go more slowly this time around.
We kind of flew around the curve and hydroplaned ourselves right into heartbreak.
Soez yea.
As you can tell, I get bored during second perioud.
huzzah for document layout and design.
Next is chemistry.
Then PreCalculus.
Have to write my first body paragraph for my theatre arts speech.
Girls > Boys. OH YEA.
Then, rehearsal tonight.
I asked Tommy to come out and sit in as our audience. Hopefully, he'll come because I really want to see him.
Like, a lot.
Crap, and my birthday is tomorrow.
This is my last full day as a fifteen-year-old.
People keep asking me what I want for my birthday.
And I really can't tell them much.
I mean, I KNOW what I want from Tommy.
A hug.
A kiss.
And a promise that, this time around, he actually wants to stay. For sure.
I'll make him sign his name in blood :D
Well, maybe not THAT severe, but hey.
Actually, no. I just want him to stay with me longer than three months.
I mean, he has to keep coming back to me for a reason, right?
And, seeing as we haven't had sex, it can't be that, so get that out of your mind right now.
:P
<3
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